Do you ever want to lock yourself in the bathroom and sit on the toilet for an extra five minutes? I do. I think maybe I can just sneak off and steal a moment for myself, even if it involves sitting bare-bottomed on porcelain. I just want a moment that’s mine, that doesn’t have to be shared with anyone else.
I wish I could say that sometimes I manage to pull it off, but that’s not the truth.
Right now, I don’t have the luxury of peeing in peace. That’s just the way it is. And while it’s sometimes frustrating, it also tugs at my heartstrings. There are ten little toes waiting for me beyond that door, depending on me for everything- safety, nourishment, play, structure, unconditional love and affection. She’s waiting for me. In her eyes, I’m it. I’m her #1. That’s all there is to it. It’s terribly clingy and terribly sweet.
Fifteen years from now I’ll be the one waiting outside her door, knocking, hoping that she’ll let me in to her world. Fifteen years from now I’ll be the one waiting (on the couch at midnight) for my little girl to return home. For now, I guess I can forgo peeing in peace.
Sarah Morris says:
i love you MJ! this post made me giggle, but it also made me well up. your perspective on motherhood, life, love and the mother-daughter bond is so poignant.
September 17, 2009 at 11:18 am
Rana says:
Thank God for locks on bathroom doors, but I see your point. I hope my daughter will always let me in.
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September 17, 2009 at 12:23 pm
Cheryl says:
My son [21 months] would put his fingers under the door and we have many pictures of him looking under that crack. He giggles with glee when I touch is fingers on the other side. No peace when you are a mom or dad.
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September 17, 2009 at 12:47 pm
Mariah says:
Great post! You eloquently articulate what we feel everyday while helping to put it into the proper perspective
September 17, 2009 at 6:57 pm
Party Cupcake Ideas says:
Saturday’s are generally the only day I have any freedom to go it alone. Otherwise, I guess if you count 2 or 3am trips to the bathroom as quality time
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September 17, 2009 at 9:26 pm
Valerie @ Frugal Family Fun Blog says:
Hahaha! When I read the title of your post, I thought to myself… “Umm…NO!” It’s practically impossible to have any privacy whatsoever. But you’re right… a few years from now, we’ll be the ones wanting to go inside. **sigh** It goes by so quickly!
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September 17, 2009 at 10:40 pm
Stacie @ newmommyhelp.net says:
I can relate! Yesterday, I cam across a book called “Let Me Hold You Longer” by Karen Kingsbury. I would have bought it except it made me cry. It’s all about the last moments in life–like the last time our little one jumps into our arms or sits in our lap. The very moments that drive us up a wall are the ones we’ll miss later.
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September 18, 2009 at 8:39 am
Megan at Simple Kids says:
Oh yes. This is funny but poignant truth!! Great perspective on this.
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September 18, 2009 at 2:10 pm
turnitupmom says:
Now I know how to get you all talkin’!
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September 18, 2009 at 2:29 pm
mike says:
Maybe you could pee together???? No privacy, but a shared moment on your own pots! ( what a picture that would be!)
September 21, 2009 at 9:51 am
Allison @ Slice of Heaven says:
Great post…can totally relate! Cuz when they get older and you leave the door open, you start to get all kinds of questions! LOL!
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September 22, 2009 at 11:15 am